Unattainable by Madeline Sheehan

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Story 4 of 5 stars

Heat 5 of 5 stars

Series – Undeniable

First Couple – Cage West and Tegen Louise Matthews

Second Couple – ‘Dirty’ Michael/’Ellie’ Eleanor Tate

MAJOR TRIGGER WARNING AND SPOILER ALERT

This is the warning on the back of the book ‘This is not a virtuous and tender love story. It’s chaotic, ruthless, and tragic. This story takes love and kills its innocence, steals away the pure moments, and crushes the hearts of the broken. A story born in childhood, tying one girl to one boy, leads to a destructive path — that hurts more than it doesn’t, that shatters more than it heals-testing the love that binds the two through a lifetime.’ This only covers half of it, it doesn’t cover that raw, heartbreaking and at times appalling parts of the romance between Dirty and Ellie.

This was another tough, emotional read but the author is so talented she made me want to keep reading anyways. There’s two couples in this book, all of them flawed and troubled.

Cage is the son of the president of a criminal MC, he’s a man whore, with daddy issues, but as a kid he also took the time to play ‘tea party’ with a little girl. Tegen fell in love with Cage when he joined her at tea, they were close and as the years went buy she fell more and more in love with him. Tegen didn’t have an ideal childhood but when she turned sixteen she gave a drunk Cage her virginity, declaring her love and he burned her. In her pain she turns into a raging, bitch whenever they cross paths and quite honestly she came across as more of a child throwing constant temper tantrums, than a grown woman much of the time. Cage has daddy issues and treats women as disposable sex toys. It’s hard to like either of them, but watching them try to figure things out kept me reading.

Couple #2, Dirty and Ellie were the hardest to read. Dirty was raped and abused by not only his mother but his foster mother, he was raped by both women and men and he is extremely messed up in the head. He’s a rapist, he drugs women in order to have sex with him and yet he saves Ellie from being raped in an alley. He saves her and he’s the only one Ellie trusts to keep her safe. Dirty’s head is so messed up when it comes to women and sex, watching him fight so hard to protect Ellie not only from her rapist but from himself, drew me in, cheering him on as well as wanting him locked up and thrown in jail. It was heartbreaking hearing his inner dialogue, of self-disgust, trying to fight his demons.

I still can’t believe I kept reading this story, but it was so compelling I found that I couldn’t stop reading. This story definitely has a happy ending for both couples but the path to get there is so broken and torn apart you may feel a bit bruised by the end.

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